catvin life story

跟老婆好回了

2008-12-13T22:04:00.002+08:00

答应她一天抽4支烟！要买电话黑她当圣诞礼物！但要过年才拿到哦！嘻嘻。。。
好了要写爱的故事了。。。真的自己想的哦。。。想很久了。。。
其实爱恨往往只是我们的一念之间，爱不仅要懂的宽容，很多事可能只在于你心境的转变吧了。当有个人爱上你，那并不代表你不选择他。我们总说：我要找一个自己很爱很爱的人。假如从来没有开始过，你又怎么知道会不会没有结果呢？其实很爱很爱的感觉，是要以其经历很多事情才会发现的。或许每个人都希望找到新目中百分百的伴侣。当你爱一个人的时候，爱要八分绝对刚刚好，剩下的来爱自己。如果你还继续爱的更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此透不过气来，完全上丧失了爱情的乐趣。所以，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱。或许，下面这段话可以给你一些启示：爱一个人，要了解也要开解，要道歉也要道谢，要认错也要改错，要体贴也要体谅！要接受不是忍受，是支持不是支配，是慰问不是质问，是倾诉不是控诉，是彼此交流不是凡事交代，是为对方默默祈求而不是向对方诸多要求，可以浪漫但不要浪费，对你用心希望你能感动，对你真心希望你能珍惜，让你窝心是我的心愿，所以（以后牵手就不要随便说分手）

每一多玫瑰都有刺，正如人的性格都有不能容忍的缺点！要爱护以朵玫瑰，并不是怒力把它的刺除掉，而是学习如何不被刺伤！这样才是的懂的爱护自己的人！

第二天了。。。

2008-12-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

today her bring her parents go kelatan massage daddy foot....i cal her when 11am he say oni reach there...ask her eat le ma?tired?her say morning eat...now haven hungry,n her say tired so i cal her take rest la....i ask her tat guy gt cal her anot her say morning oni lo...then i tell her tell he early n say clearly...her say o......-_-...then i working le,n her take rest le...second time cal her at bout 2plus..ask her wake up le ma,her stil sleep bt giv me make wake up le...hehe...sori...ask her eat le ma,no haven eat so hungry,faster eat la,no thing eat so far la,hello u gt car ar,dunno where then i say eat curry pop lo...her say mummy wan eat de..-__-
then ok lo...but remember eat o....n drink water o...her play wif there child....
after 5pm cal her,her say backin home....ok lo...tell her carefull ar....when 6pm her cal me say reach home le...ask me finish work le ma?haven,cant back rain so heavy cant go back now...!then ask her eat le ma cause her noon no eat too much scare her hungry,her say eating now....ask her tel the guy le ma?haben he no call,then i tell her sms lo,better ma dun wil shy ma....her say dun wan...-_-
then her say tonight cal lo....n i also think next year,i wil back kl see her beside her le,i noe her wan me beside her,i noe er line alone so hard...so i will take time every month if not gt problem i wil back every month...i really wil do wat for her,i really dun wan mis her,break wif her...i really wan wif u forever....i love her so much...her also promise me wil say wif tat guy toinght....i really hope her n he no any relation le....i cant without her le....nee i really love u,u noe ma?i noe her dun treat me say i lie,bt i really say trueth de....pls believe me...wen back home eat le i send message to her say i back home le,bt her no reply me.......ok le write here 1st cause haven back...hehe...

sad.......

2008-12-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

today tat sad thing hapen le she wan break wif me....i dun wan .....i noe i cant beside u when u nid me........i noe gt ppl 在追你！he can beside u u wan go where he can take u go by car i cant....i noe.....i also feel so lonely so hard live alone.....i also hope u can beside me.......i really dun wan break wif u..i dun wan...........pls................

最讨人喜欢的十六种女孩

2008-11-20T20:27:00.001+08:00

1.她很想陪着你，即使是在网上，一句话都不说。你开心的时候，她很想在你身边看到你微笑的样子。你失落的时候，她第一时间在你旁边安慰你，想破脑袋想帮你。你熬夜到很晚，她的QQ或者msn陪你一起亮着。如果你下线了，再登录一看，她的头像就暗了。你知道吗？她熬到那么晚只是在等你。
2.懂事，知道什么时候该撒娇，什么时候该像爱小孩子一样疼惜你。如果你是个学生，她不会任性地要求你翘课陪她逛街，不会让没有经济来源的你买奢侈品。如果你已经工作，她不会埋怨你忘记打电话给他，不会在你工作烦心的时候要你甜言蜜语，即使自己心情再不好，也会轻轻拥着你，始终站在你这边。
3.不放过任何与你有关的信息，融入你的生活圈，朋友圈。结识你的朋友，链接任何在你空间留言的朋友的页面，看你喜欢的电影和书，去你喜欢的餐厅，逛你喜欢的品牌店，甚至笨拙地模仿你欣赏的异性类型。她不是不够好，而是想变得更好，更适合你，更容易得到你的认可和赞许。
4.她绝不会在你同事同学家人朋友面前提你的缺点，嘲笑你，哪怕只是玩笑。她可能觉得你这么做那样做不对，但会给足你男人需要的面子，帮你打圆场，帮你找台阶下，只晒幸福，只说你的好。
5.她需要你的肩膀，但是绝不会凡事都依赖你。她在你面前很弱势，常常需要你来把持局面。不是她笨，只是喜欢在你面前装傻，喜欢被你照顾。但她不会粘着你，把你当保姆，该独立的时候她可以一个人。
6.她不会总是要求你先让步。男生要懂得包容和迁就，不是因为她是女人，而是因为你是男人。但她绝不会因此被宠坏而从头至尾都等着你主动向她道歉，而是会很小心翼翼地跟你撒娇，求得你的原谅。
7.她发给你的短信几乎不会有错别字，不会有歧义。她很注重跟你在一起时的一切细节，连发消息之前都会反复确认好几遍，措词，语气，甚至表情。
8.她和你朋友一起聚会时候会打扮得漂亮但不会妖艳，只会在你面前偶尔穿很火辣的衣服。她永远会把你与其他男生区别对待，而不是总是孔雀开屏般向所有人展示美丽。
9.看到女人围着你转，她会吃醋，那些女人很优秀，她更容易吃醋，但是不会无理取闹，兴师问罪。她关心你，在乎你，想要抓住你。只要你肯耐下心，不要吝惜让她安心的话。她需要的只是一句别人听不到只有她能听的话。
10.她也许会有很多异性朋友，也许不乏追求者，但是她会明确告诉他们她喜欢的是你，而且不会拿这些人的优点跟你作比较。她会时不时告诉你谁谁谁要追她，看到你紧张的表情，会很满足地加一句，我心里只会有你一个人o(∩_∩)o…不是她无聊，她很需要被重视。
11.好女孩还是孝顺的。她不仅懂得孝顺自己的父母，还懂得尊老爱幼，把自己的温柔和细腻发挥到淋漓尽致，让人如沐春风。
12.好女孩懂得尊重感情。真正好的女孩无论是不是曾经被感情伤害，都不带怨恨，从来不说前男友的坏话。把过去，无论痛苦还是甜蜜的回忆都深藏在自己的心里，当成一种成长，一种历练。
　13.好女孩天真里带有一丝童趣。总能以最纯洁且友善的眼光去看待别人。在她们的眼里，是不乏美丽的，因为她们的目光只是追逐美丽，不会为丑陋侵袭 .
14.好女孩喜欢听舒缓的音乐，不泡吧，不熬夜。把生活打理的安静而甜蜜，把每一份爱情当成一生的爱情来经营。每一次的投入都是彻底的，每一次的离开都是干脆的。她们既温柔，也勇敢。
　15.好女孩总有几个闺密。不只是粘着男友，懂得和朋友分享自己的幸福和喜悦，还有成长的烦恼。
16.好女孩闲暇时间会读很多书。在书籍里开拓视野，增长知识，提升心智。在书里寻求一种安静的成长。

missing someone

2008-10-31T16:03:00.002+08:00

missing u,
started to miss u in the mid night
miss u even in the bath room
miss u even in the mid of my breakfast, lunch and dinner
miss u every moment u doesnt beside me
miss u even having a class
my heart stolen by u
its go forever
i will let it be with u until the day i give out i last breath
miss u more than others will
miss u more than others i give
miss u more than what i can miss
miss u more than everything
missing u because love u
love u more than u will
love u more than others
love u more than what u can give
love u more than i could take
love hv to be sacrify
like what u hv scarify for me
and what i hv done it for u
now waiting for the day that u will beside me
waiting for the day u say u will give happiness to me
waiting for the day u say how much u love me
waiting for the day u say how much u care for me
waiting for the day that every single thing that i scarify will hv good ending
waiting for the day that both of us go through this challenge
waiting for the day that both of us started to earn for our future
waiting for the day u say our love need to hv a gift
waiting for the day u can independent
waiting for the day u show u proposed
waiting for the day to be ur bridge
waiting for the day to live forever with u
waiting for the day everything that u said with be true
waiting for the say that our dream come true
waiting for the day u fulfill ur promised
u r prince of a princess that doesnt deserve the call as princess
u r all to me!
i miss u very much, vincent loh.
i love u forever i can!
hope to be with u forever.
hope can see u again as soon as possible!

~爱~永远都是难题！

2008-10-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系愈是相处不容易
伤害了你我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

情

2008-10-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

情？
情是什么？

情，
是一个梦，
使人沉迷，使人恍惚。
沉入其中者，但愿常梦不愿醒

情，
是一个陷阱，
一个温柔的陷阱。
跌入其中的，明知会越陷越深，却又不愿意跳出来。

情，
是一把火，是一把熊熊烈火。
使人燃烧，使人疯狂，只要生命存在，火就不会熄灭。
野火烧不尽，春风吹又生”。

情，
是甜蜜的，是动人心魄的，是醉人灵魂的。
无论在现实中，还是在网络里，都是如此。

miss my dear so much! so unfair to him but... cant explain at all!

2008-09-27T18:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday whole nite cant sleep well at all.today early in the morning go to college coz wanna go check whether my pendrive still at library due to my careless i left it at library yesterday nite but unfortunelly i cant found it!T.T ppl steel it le wtf of ppl is that! nvm, today i and my best collegemate go to interview for home based data entry coz both of us really no money dy and nobody know about this unless the person who recommend us and 1 more pretty girl know about it!v consider pk le! v just tot interview only just go try it! but whose know act need to pay for this and that! then both of us lie the interviewer that v wanna go to withdraw the money to make the payment! then v at group flour and discuss about it coz v also scare that v been cheat by them! v discuss and discuss coz v really pk dy v dun wan been cheat la but if v din try it how v know is real anot! then v decide just 1 ppl go for register and v share the job together! so if touch wood v been cheat at least 1 ppl only right and wont been cheated too much! so v try it out but v still scare it so v tell them that v wanna the assignment by monday due to they persuade us that they dy hv assignment on hand. so after sign agreement and everything the interviewer told us to go home and wait for the phone call! wtf...she not telling us that they dy hv the assignment?! shit! hope everything xun xun li li! so that i can buy pendrive!
after that, i continue with the idiot person who that consider herself as my group member in RM cw but do nth! everyday ask her din she do her part sure she reply sorry i not at kl! wtf!!! now call she do individual assignment she also susah! v finish ours then v gonna pass it up on monday then can concentrate on study! exam is on next week after raya la and until now i din even touch any book yet wtf! siew hui send msg and ask her when can she pass up then she say monday she just back! then siew hui reply her that v gonna pass it up on monday! u know what the fellow reply?! really ftw! she ask siew hui back then how! due to no answer then i become bad person! "when can u pass up ur articles to me and ur individual assignment! i wanna settled it down by tomolo and monday v wanna pass it up! mr.v**** give us 2 due date 1 is before hari raya 1 is after hari raya! if any 3 groups that can pass it up before hari raya they will get extra 3 marks so if u cant make it then v will pass it up 1st and urs, u hv to pass it up urself coz u din do anything for group assignment and others finish it ontime so its unfair for others if v wait for u! its really unfair to other that hv put effort in this assignment!" this is the msg that i send to her! but i still got put sorry in the end! haha...force and force she just told me she try to give me on monday wtf! v do like hell and others din care at all but gonna get same marks with us! its a bit unfair for me! nvm! how difficult it was GOD still will know everything that v do and put effort on it!
third thing that happened is today get cw marks for last sem! luckily still ok but then not really happy with the cw marks also! so now try my best in this sem exam to push the CGPA up again since my last last sem result like shit! nobody can imagine how shit it was!
stop this this stupid story since this blog is for catvin so better talk about us!
today even at class but my heart dy is in the house so that i can come back and voice chat using skype with vincent coz like that save money ma. after he go back sg v not yet hv a good conversation between us! everyday i busy with my cw and exam thing until no time to border him and he also busy with his work! everyday hv OT! everyday said wait he reach home v chat in skype when he call me thru hp but everytime he reach home and call me sure i dy sleep like a pig with his pig! so today tot is sat i can spend sometime to talk with him and he dy finish his work! but whose know not even 20 mins he told me he wanna sleep dy! so v end our conversation! end with bye bye even i really unwilling to hang up the call! i know is unfair to u coz everytime i sleep u wont angry me and disturb me even u so miss me and wanna to hv a conversation with me wtf!u bought a computer and paid for the internet but most of the time is ur fren using until i dunno which 1 is u?! when u can use it?!its so frust when i always hv to guess whether my bf back home and izzit he is the 1 who online?! everytime things turn it to u i will become very angry and fierce at u! so sorry that coz of my busyness i not spend time even just a few mins for u! i miss u very much! everytime see a couple pass by or next to me even my best collegemates going out with her bf i feel so upset! so jealous that her bf so near to her! but i know 1 day v will be together like her! i know u try ur best to work hard for our future so am i!sorry my dear for everything that i hv done to u! i try not put my temper on u and simply hang up ur call!

the different guys with gals!

2008-09-18T08:51:00.002+08:00

guys wont remember all the thing like gals!
gals can remember every single thing that they do together or even what the guy doing but guy cant remember every single thing that they do. gals always can care the guy very much but guy cant even feel it and do the same thing to gals! should now wanna advise gals dun find a bf that u love him more than he love u! find 1 that love u more than u love him, i'm sure u 2 hv happy everlasting together! but for sure vincent not a good guy and a good bf! maybe he still young! still in play fool mood is different from us! i start thinking of my future and he not! v hv a lot of different! my fren said hope that v can last for more than 1 year la! what they said hv make me worried so much! until now still thinking izzit worth for me to sacrifies so much for him that he din even care about me?! ya, the way he treat me really doesnt like a bf! he cant even remember when he find me or where v go?! sat when he come back i didnt go to class!v promised to meet at 11am! and sun i go to class and not mon! sun v go eat kfc and not mcd! sun u overnite at my house and not mon! v meet bubbles on sun and not mon! ya, u promised me to give me present but what u give me! is ur bro give u 1! my heart so pain when u told me!i do everything or u but u cant do even 1 thing to make me feel so sweet or feel that u hv sacrifies for us! u hv do nth for us! ya, 2 mnonths pass but i dunno whether v still can go for 2 months , 4 months, 5 months or even more!

on leave 1 weeks back 2 KL

2008-09-16T21:24:00.002+08:00

i back on last friday night reach on kl is 5am...damn so cold n kl change so much...but i stil can ren luo back hehe....after take a smoke beside wait teksi beside road...after get in teksi i say wif driver salak selatan.when bout 20minute,i reach my flat le.after pay then take lift n knock my house door i knock bout 2 min stil no 1 open door 4 me de?after tat my sis in law open her window n c who knock the door?yup is me,her open door n beside tat ask why u back no1 noe de?i ask my mom noe ar,but i get in house i no c my mom.....last time CNY i aslo gt back home bt my mom wil waiting me ar....why tis time no de?damn so tired sleep le oni say tomorrow la...when i wake up i ask my mom why u yesterday no wait me back n open door 4 me?her say her all time also sleep at her room n wil wake up at 5 am more but yesterday her no wake up juz sleep until morning...haiz......after talk i go wash face n go eat la.....so huai nian malaysia food haha....when i down food court i c wat?is nasi remah...so long time no eat le of course eat it la.......wa rm4.50 expensive ma?i no think so...hehe...n i c my fren at food court also so of course talk n talk la....beside tat muz sms my little sweat heart catherine....ask her where la...her stil study at school...after tat of course go meet my bee la...hehe after met v go pat tuo at time square....wan c tat money no enough but it wan wait until 4pm more of course cant c la cause night wan eat wif mme family ma....so juz walk walk around 4pm then back lol...so we back my house 1st la
muz bath ma....if not bee dun wan me le...hehe...after 5pm more v go down food court there n wait my family...wait until 6 more all come le then order food lol...fish meat sumthing like normal.....aster eat all family gone le...juz leave v 2 oni better my fren come so n wait he eat n talk lol....actually i promise bee tonight go her house sleep de...but my fren say tonight go pub drink....so u all noe la no need say la....of courtse go la....so i fetch bee back 1st lo...i noe he no happy de...but i say pls pls so her giv le lo....muakz bee....after bee back raining sia....half an hour stop le....so i back my fren house 1st n wait he bath n call all zhu peng gou you then meet at puib lo....1st order 3 jug bear drink....drnik n drink...finish le....n my fren say boring no gal come our table de?why pppl come v no?after wait n wait got gal come le....but no sop pretty la...better than no ma...hehe....her go drink wif my fren...last is me.all my fren so shy i also dunno y they shy...haiz....so i ask wat her name..omg i forget le...hehe...nvm then her sat beside me,alll my fren c at me so i juz smile smile lol...then her leave le so v juz drink again...after that finish le...n open 3 jug again n i ah wo n ah wing go out eat stim food juz leave ah hong inside haha....after eat v get in n drink tat got ppl sing,after tat gal sing ah hong ask her come n drink,tat more pretty than juz now tat,so all muz drink wif her la,i also the last 1 n also her sit beside me o..hehe really o.after drink finish v leave le then go massage o...when monday,morni same eat n i promise bee go wait her finish school so i early go wait her n her bring me go eat wif her school mate at McD..after eat then v back her house n i be pig sleep le...hehe...n her do her assighnment...when 5 pm more wake up le...n go bath lol...cause today there got pasar malam ma so ask bubbles go also lo...then go there walk n c git wat buy lo...n buy DVD c lo...n help bee didi buy food to he eat....after buy all then go back le....n c dvd la....after c 1 dvd finish is 12 more le....bee also sleepy le...so hug gether n sleep lol...hehe so sweet....tomorrow 11more oni wake up like a pig....then wash face wait her homemate fo out n eat n i back home le....n c my mom n talk...n no time puio my bee le so her atyle all out le like last blog la...haha...when saturday bee call me go find her but i so tired le is 10am o...but i got wake up n cal her say i tired la n her so nice cal me nvm la u lseep la...i say dun wan la i wake up la...her say dun need la u sleep la i think her so good de...after few hour send sms 2 me say break WTF i suddenly wake up le...ask wat happen answer is down blog there...u all go see la...i talk a little bit,answer is diff world la,no good la,no pui her la,change le la,no good la sumthing like tat lo.when night i sms so many time her also dun reply call her phone no answer la...when sunday night,i smsm her say i back tomorrow le u wan c me ma wan fetch me ma?her say her giot school finish at 11 more my bus time is 1.30pm so ok lo promise le,ask her now at where her say out wif fren gai gai....i say carefull ar,so worry her happen so night le is 11more pm le haven back home...when 12 her oni reach home.sov talk phone le,ask hoe her forgive me her say wat u promise her muz do so oni can forgive me i juz huatang her a present oni ma....so i giv her my pink pig lo...hehe...when monday i wake up n take all cloth n thing 2 bag of course muz remeber tat pig if not i die o...when 10.30 out n wait teksi go lrt station n take lrt go her school there lo i also shy take a big pink pig at lrt aslo scare malay c tat plastik bag no enough big sti can c tat pig tail but cant c head la if no i die o when malay c...hehe...when reach there her also haven finish school,so stil wait lo....when 11.10 her sms me say wait at McD there so i walk there n wait lo few minute her come le c me hug a pink pig her smile le no angry again le,u c like a child haha,dun tell her o if not i die o...haha...of course her gt c de...when meet go eat lo...after eat her bring me go buy thing...i c time is almost 1pm her ssay dun worry la,stil gt time when 1.10 her oni go pudu there n i ask tat ticket kaunter wat no. bas tta ppl say wan go bukit jalil wait bas WTF now is 1.20pm le...how i go...tat ppl say bas wil wait de call us go by shuttle bas go there...then v go wait at bas station la...when get on tat shuttle bas is 1.30 le...i so worry la...catherine la say dun scre c....when reach there is 2pm more le so i go find bas heng tat bas juz come oni,so v kiss her when i get on tat bas haha...sweet...n i cal her back la cause her stil gt lesson at 3pm so her leave le....n im back to singapore le....sad........n lastly happy 2month together catherine n vincent...........

take leave back to KL 1 weeks

2008-09-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

untitled

2008-09-13T12:28:00.002+08:00

this blog is for u! no title coz i dunno what should i put!
for me, u not a good bf!
for me, i also not a good gf for u!
for me, we two hv a big gap that i cant even get in to ur world!
for me, we two is really a different world!
for me, i dun think i love u that much!
for me, i also know that u not really love me!
if before this u ask me whether i love u?! ya, i can very sure that i love u very much!
but now, everything is change!
its no more the vincent that i know before!
maybe u still the same just the different is i din be with u so i dunno what u really r?!
but now, for me, vincent is reallty different than what i tot before!
before meet, he so concern me!
before meet, he so care about me!
before meet, he can awake whole night for me!
before meet, he can dun join his fren for every entertainment just bcoz of me!
before meet, he start plan what he gonna do after he come back to be with me!
before meet, u said u will fetch me back from night class!
but after meet, he forgot everything that he told me before!
after meet, no more concern!
after meet, i not a princess that he care like before anymore!
after meet, i realise he not the vincent i know before!
after meet, u old me my class end too late la not going to bring me back!
after meet, after meet and many more!
and v seldom meet act!
love is not easy like what u think but it also not complicated like what u think!
before meet, i can told everything!
but after meet, i din even wan to talk with u what the problem u and me have!
i just can share with other that i not close at all!
before v started everyone advise me not to take the risk!
ya, i stubborn!
i dun believe it at all!
i think that u will change for me!
ya, u change!
change from actual good to bad!
is i too stupid coz believe that love is important than everything!
is i stupid until i believe that if v love each other then no problem for other things!
but now i realise its wrong at all!
alot of ppl call me try to talk with u the problem!
but i dun think what i say is useful at all!
this few days be with u every moment i look at u alot of thing in my mind!
alot of thing that gonna happen between us come out in my mind!
is suffer full of scary!
every i scare this and that but what for?!
alot of ppl advise me to not continue this!
stop torturing myself!
i still try an try!
but today i really cant accept anymore!
like others said, ya, i hv a guy who treat me good than u! y should i torture myself to choose u?!
a fren treat me 1000m times better than u!
when i sick the one who buy porridge and panadol for me is not u but other guy!
how ridiculous it is if other knew it!
when i sick the 1 beside me to take care me its not u!
i wish is u but reality not!
u can imagine how worst u r?!
i sure u wont know!
i know ur parents din like me!
frankly speaking i dun like them too!
1st impression is important!
they give me suck impression!
i start compare u with my ex!
how good is them compare to u?!
u still need a lot of work hard!
u totally different!
told u everything u also cant be like them at all!
i think is enough until here!
just let me go with peaceful heart!
i wont cry or sad coz u not worth for it!

cry out from the heart but useless!

2008-09-08T13:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday nite i really cry out from my heart!
but useless! he wont know!
he not suppose be with me! ya!
in his eyes i cant see any love!
the thing i worried for so long its really happened!
everything is so sweet before v meet but it become a nite mare for me after met!
i learn the lessons from the day v met!
not to believe what the guy say so easily coz it will hurt u more than that!
not to met up with his family members if u not sure how is his family members gonna accept u!
and everything is not easy like i think!
he really different than "him"
i found out he not the one that i wan!
i feel like i a big sis taking care for a younger bro!
i feel that y i so stupid!
y i know that i so mind with the age but still choose to be!
y i torturing myself and now i suffer it alone!
i work hard and do everything for him but i feel really unsecure!
maybe he is too young!
i really hv to let go this before it will be more worst!
i wont be able to tolerate with nor him neither his family members!
i hv to future good choices y i choose to take the suffer way?!
i hv more better guy that i can choose!
a guy who care about me so much!
who always take care of me!
who always protect me!
but sad is my own bf wont do it on me forever!
he really not mature enough!
everything is different from before!
love someone so u hv to let go someone!
and i know he not serious in this relationship at all!
the way he talk!
the way he concern me!
all become different!
now for him if wanna break thenjust break!
he wont mind for it!
i think its time to say bye bye!
this time really bye bye forever!

really upset!

2008-08-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

today get to know that i have many bad habits and attitude!
trying to change!
hope can change lo!
the another case!
i just realise that u not trust on me at all!
disappointed!
really disappointed!
1 relationship wont last for long if we din trust each other at all!
is wasting time if we continue!
okla, stop by now coz i dunno what to say and lazy to say anymore!
tired!
-end of my stupid story-

happeness

2008-08-13T22:22:00.001+08:00

dun heard catherine say.....no end o......last time is her fa pi qi so say like tat de.....now ok le hehe......n 14 august is catherine birthday o......but sadlly zou tou caant celebrate wif her....but next month zou tou wilback malaysia o so tat time oni celebrate wif her....hehe....n tis 2 day her exam o.....zou tou wish her pass all exam o....hardly study o...if not i bite u o...hehe.....today her exam finish le so her can relax few days but next week tuesday stil got exam so dun relax so long o stil wan study o....

sadness

2008-08-10T16:51:00.002+08:00

it so hard for me to say out but i hv to do it also! our love, our life, our memorize, our tears hv to end here! i very sad to say so but i hv to say so! we not suitable for each other! what we thinking are so different! u still young! u hv alot of experience that u need to go truth! i very sure that in ur heart no me! i know u sure will say no! but i know in ur heart really no me! dont worry i can accept it and u also hv to accept ur heart dun hv me! i just beg to u dont force urself to fall in love with someone! i'm sure 1 day u will find 1 girl that u really fall in love with! i very sad that i hv to end this blog but i did not sad that i choose to end this relationhip coz i know our love wont everlasting love that i know before! from here i just want to let u know i started fall in love with u but love somemore doesnt mean we hv to be together! i love u until now! but i choose to end because we hv lot of difference that u dun even realise! i use a long time to think about it and look in to this relationship and i realise its not work between us! maybe its truth without GOD in the relationship its hard to build the love in between us! wish both of us will find 1 partner that suitable for us 1 day! all the best and good bye to catvin life story! THE END!

Day that had spend at kt!

2008-08-09T22:41:00.009+08:00

02/08/08 Saturday
Today going back! Wake up early in the morning to pack my thing then about 8.15 go out to wait for the bus to go to lrt station. Bravo Catherine! 1st time take bus then take lrt star line to putra station. Reach pwtc is about 9.40am. I think I very clever in time management. Hehe… 1st time take public transport to pwtc also can estimate the time. But when reached there call my bro coz he going back with me on that day. I wait him until 9.50am he just reached. That 10mins when I waiting for him, I so worry! So worry that he cant make it on time coz the bus ticket with him. If he cant make it means I also cant go back. But then he still can make it la! Hehe… when he reached he go buy bread for me to eat coz I really very hungry at that time. I didn’t take any breakfast yet. When get in to the bus I straight away start sleep lo but about 11.00am the bus stop. So wonder what happened. The bus driver say cant “jing” gear. Swt… we stuck at 1st toll about 1 hour ler. Swt… but after that dunno how they make it the bus still can move they try their best to drive properly until the depoh of the bus company. Hehe… the bus company name is secret la. That time is already about 2smth in the evening le. Then we stuck at there about 1 hour also but they can fix it so we have to change to another bus. Swt… really sweating ler. Is old bus! Wtf! We bought the ticket price for 3 seat per row but then we end up with 4 seat per row. Somemore the bus aircond really dame sucks. Very hot ler. So we have our lunch at 4 pm! Wtf is this! 4pm still called lunch?! After a while daddy call up ask about what time we gonna reach?! Haha… but I told him unlucky we will be late due to the bus break down at half way! Then daddy say this morning mummy just say that will the bus break down at half way! Swt… but I still reached kt safety at about 8pm. Praise the lord that we are safe! Hehe… after reached home sure grab my DURIANS lol!

03/08/08 Sunday
huhuhu…wake up in the morning 1st thing is msg my zhu tou! He really zhu tou ler. So late dy still sleep like a pig but he still can reply my msg ler. Izzit ghost replying my msg?! OMG! In the msg still say some sweet sweet word ler. Erm… what sweet sweet word? Wanna know? Hehe… sure secret man! Wakaka…mummy cook my favorite food oo…! Hehe… took the pic then sent to zhu tou! Zhu tou dunno what is that really stupid ler. After that zhu tou finally wake up le lo. Psps… is I keep going wake him up de la. So wonder how he replies me while he still sleeping neh?! Haha… after wake up he straight away took this pic and send to me!

After that drive my bro go to dentist there. Hehe… plug his teeth! After that when reched home what I do?! Haha… keep going eat my DURIANS. When about 9smth fetch my bro go to bus station coz that night he going back to kl dy! After send him to bus station then send some food to my cousin and aunty house! After I reached home ask what zhu tou doing he say go find fren then go for dinner but after that end up with go cc play online game. Swt… why guys so like to play online game?????!!!!! Cant understand! stupid zhu tou say will call me back when he reached home but whole nite didn’t receive any call or msg! wtf!

04/08/08 Monday
dunno why today early in the morning dy sot le coz send zhu tou smth that I not even say it out before. Today is the 1st time. deng… just zhu tou know what is that! Haha… and he replied me! Yeah yeah… but everyday he also says that la. Nth special act! Zhu tou always msg me and call me! Everyday with the same msg! always ask the same question talk also talk the same thing everyday! Really fan ler! Then haha… I very naughty lo… create some story to argue with him! Make him so uncomfortable! Wakaka… but I so happy at here! Then continue like day before! Hehe… continue eat my DURIANS. Then msg with zhu tou! Then oi oi lo. Zhu tou always call me sleep early1 coz he wan to play online game! Wtf!

p/s: pls dun smoke too much le la! U promised me not to smoke le ma!

-ugly de zhu tou! always act cool! cheh!

-know himself ugly le still dare to take pic without

clothes ler! he really tot he very handsome ar!wtf!

05/08/08 Tuesday

-walau ei... fat hao de catherine! but stupid

zhu tou say the pic very nice ler.

-another fat hao pic that zhu

tou still say nice! wtf!

today like day before also. Wake up and send msg to zhu tou! But zhu tou no much thing to talk with me! So end up with send mms! Hehe… I think coz our money too much nth to use so keep going mms. Nth much different act! Still with the call and msg! the question also the same but today keep going with say me “sap po”. Deng… evening go out with mummy to buy smth then my aunty call me ask me at nite free anot?! Hehe… sure free 1. about 6pm I go to fetch my aunty then tot to go to pump petrol 1st. who know stupid kt all station dun hv workers to help ppl pump petrol le all hv to do urself. Deng… then what I will do somemore drive off la but luckily my car still got petrol. Haha… at night, we go shop shop a while then go have dinner for my early birthday celebration! Hehe… I eat fish n chip and sushi! Wow… damn full. 1st time see the dishes so large eat until cant breath ler but forgot to talk down the pic! Sorry! then after that go out kai kai a while then my aunt call me go pump petrol then I try again lo. Haha… but luckily got 1 indonesian workers stand there nth to do while line up then I tell him help me pump petrol. He said ok. Haha… huhuhu…. My hand wont be dirty le coz no need to pump petrol myself! Today quite happy! The zhu tou know I going out he also go out! Go out with fren always forgot about me 1! Haih…said after take dinner go back but always end up with cc play games! Sien lo…

06/08/08 Wednesday
today wake up a bit different. Didn’t msg zhu tou! Then he msg me! Haha… but I didn’t reply lo. Then he call me I dun wan to answer! Haha… he keep going msg me and call me but no answer lo! Make he so worry! Very good lo! Today going back kl le! So that evening go shop again bought a lot of thing! Hehe… somemore bought some new clothes! Wakaka… before go back still eat my DURIANS until zhu tou did I eat durian big 1?! Hehe… about 9pm daddy send me to bus station, when reached give daddy a big kiss before go to the bus! Hehe… sure daddy very happy 1! Wakaka… then mummy company me until I get in to the bus! The foreign workers really smelly ler! Make me feel so uncomfortable and headache and feel wanna vomit ler. After a while I call mummy but she didn’t pick up my call but after few min she call me back and tell me daddy drive the car crashed the divider! OMG! When my bus pass by I still can see the car stuck there but I cant do anything just see only! So sad! But finally everything settle about 11pm and daddy and mummy reached home safety! Praise the Lord!

-huhuhu... i finished all the DURIANS!

07/08/08 Thursday
yesterday nite call up my fren and he told me when half before wanna reached pwtc call him. He ask me about what time I will reach and I told him about 4am he call me wake him up at 3.30am then he will go to fetch me! Sad… I call him from 3.30am until 6.30am he didn’t pick up my call! Swt… make me so worry! But finally he answer my call at 6.30am! he still tot that time is 3.30am! swt… I give him 80 missed call ler! But finally he still go to fetch me! He feel so guilty make me wait so long but I know he doesn’t mean it! Haha… coz he sleep at 1smth and how can I expect him wake up at 3.30am neh! Haha… he ask me got angry him anot?! Sure got la but then I also know he tired la! Today late to class lol. 1st tot dun wan go but my fren fetch me go so still can go to class lo. The stupid zhu tou just know how to angry and put his temple on me nia! Sien lo…

2008-08-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

Sat-2,august morning catherine will back her home town-tarenggaru about 5days.tat day i got work also but i call her morning n tel her carefull when back,n her say her so happy Bcause can back her home eat her favourite thing-DURIAN haha......i also wan eat.....:( when about 7pm her sms me say her arrive le....i cal her hungry thhen faster go eat 1st n bath....after tat v talk phone le....dunno v talk how many minute le then i call her go sleep la so nite le n i giv her gd nite kiss,her so happy o...hehe...:)

SUN-3,august afternoon i only wake up,when i wake up i c my phone got msg,is catherine send 2 me de say little pig haven wake up ar?hei.....today is sunday le of course sleep more late la but i juz think at heart la if tel her muz giv her scold me lan zhu haha....i ask her eat already?her say wat time le stil haven eat meh?hehe....i juz ask oni ma...:(after tat i tel her i go out wif fren le...n her say her also wan go out kai kai le......

4-5august do same thing so no need write lol hehe actualy i lazy la hehe.....

today 6,august when i wake up i sms her her dun reply me so i call phone 2 her ,her also no reply so i think her no free lol.....when 11am her sms me say im so fan,dun wan talk 2 me.....of course u wan noe why i also dun noe why so i sms her back n ask hger why la,her stil dun wan reply me bt i stil sms n call her la...her pick up phone le n ask her why,former is yesterday i finish work go find fren eat n go cc no care her,her angry me got fren no her,haiz..........but i got call her liao ma.......finally i also say a mant sweet thing to make her smile n dun angry me la,bt cant tell u wat sweet thing i say,wan uself thing la,every1 got every1'brain 2 think different thing la....hehe...when i finish work back home i cal catherine,her say later her wil back 2 KL tonight.so i tel her when back carefull ar,few minute later her tel me,her there rain le so i tell her remember bring cold shirt ar...cause nite bus there so cold de....when her up bus her tel me her'father crush the car to beside road block there n car is her de,her so sad....bt nvm la important is ppl nothing ma....car can repair de....her aslo tel me tat car so smelling i say why,her say sit behinf her is a indian guy.....n also wan vomit....i tel her use cloth cover nose lo...12.30am tat bus stop n rest 10min...n her call me,i cal her go buy thing eat n drink....her say dun wan.....i scare bee hungry later n thirsty ar.....n remember go pee pee o...hehe.....ok la nth 2 write le la so nite le la wan sleep le la...bti also not so early sleep de n also worry mt bee ma.....1 gal back nia....so dangerous la......

2008-08-01T22:33:00.002+08:00

catherine tomorrow morning will back her home at terengganu about 1weeks.....so i so sad lol cause her cant online at her home,so v cant talk at skype about 1weeks but v can talk phone la but also dunno her free answer my phono anot?n call phone also expensive o......

so so so and damn damn damn regret

2008-07-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

argggggggggggg...........
really sucks! fuck! cibai!
u really sucks! idiot! stupid fucker! an idiot person i haven see!
dun always try to put ur temper to others!
u look totally sucks!
i hate u!
better get off from me!
where got ppl want their relationship hv third party??!!!!
u tell me la!
somemore now become ppl third party!
am i wrong to get clean with it?
am i wrong to know what really happened?
i also one of the victims!
y u dun wan take responsibilities on what u hv done?
u look totally very childish!
u r so sucks in handle this problem!
cibai la!
i the victim too and u put ur temper to me!
i also hv my temper!
u tot only u kow how to put temper on others?!
so i am!
i hate u!
so so so damn damn damn regret that chosen u!
u make me feel so stupid!
ur so nasthy to me right now!
get off from my life now!
i not ur "chu qi tong" that u can put ur temper on whenever u wan fucker!
.|. nah!
end of my story!
i hate vincent loh for now and forever!
get loss!

2008-07-30T01:15:00.002+08:00

bee,wat happen to u now?why suddenly hang up at skype after tat i call u u also dun answer call u handphone u also dun answer.wat happen to bee?dear so worry lol!is tat dear do wrong things?if yes dear apologize to bee.dun angry dear la!sorry bee,i love u!bee make dear crazy le!

2008-07-29T02:56:00.002+08:00

sorry.
sorry for lying u.
i not mean to lie u anything.
but u still can choose to give up anot.
i wont blame u or angry u.
i know i gal that having a lot of problem.
i doesnt deserve for ur love.
its not worth for u to treat me so good.
sorry for lying u for so long.
u wil still b my fren no matter what decision u make.
once again sorry for everything.

hurray

2008-07-29T01:49:00.003+08:00

finally my dear can online again le.
so miss him.
this few days without him to accompany is so suffering.
this evening my dear tell me that maybe he will get salary le lo.
then i call he save money when get salary oo...
then he ask me save money for what? zhu tou ar...
save money la
got what just can save money ar...
really zhu tou lar my dear.
hehe...
i really happy that my dear can online coz next week i going back hometown for about 5 days sure i will damn miss him 1.
dear, i really miss u!
hope to see u soon if u dun mind to meet a ugly + fat + short de gf la.

sorry for i'm silly gal

2008-07-29T01:20:00.002+08:00

sorry for making u so upset. i doesnt mean to make u upset. i know its past. he still in my mind not because the deep love that still appear but instead of a memories that i really think is hard for me to forgot right now. u younger than me is reality, i cant change it. i dunno whether i still mind anot?! sorry for saying so. but u really become part of my life. a moment without ur sms make me feel so uncomfortable. the day without ur voice make me gonna be crazy. the day without ur concern make me feel apart from u! i dunno whether how deep is my love to u?! i dunno whether the real love appear in me anot?! but i just know that u become apart of my life. ur everything become so important to me. i know i always like to think very much. i know i a silly gal to u. but everytime when u say i'm silly i doesnt angry at all but instead of laughing there.

i really doesnt mean to make u angry! but i dunno y this few days a lot of thing appear in my mind. i so scare 1 day u choose back her. i dunno y i so scare. everyday i feel wanna ask u whether u settled down the problem dy?! but then i not dare to ask coz i scare u say that i not trust u. but its make me feel unsafe. i dun wan to think this and that but its my feeling! its hard for me to control myself.

today 1st time we fight! we fight just because the blog skin that i use make u cant open and i at here can open it. i not angry that u cant open it but i so upset that u say i lie to u. this blog with the previous skin that i choose is i use more than 1 day to make it. i tot u will appreciate it but u come out with that i lie u. its kind of hurt to me. its really hurt me. but nvm i doesnt put in my heart coz i know i shouldnt put that complicated and cacated blog skin. sorry dear for fight with u. sorry for scolding u coz of my stupid action. sorry for everything.

i miss u too. i miss u like hell............................................

2008-07-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

will ths blog continue state all our love story in future until we old?
or this blog will stop in few months later?
i dun wish so but if really happened i hv to accept it!
so now just state whatever story about our love for the moment at here before its really stop at 1 station!

2008-07-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

a lot of things bordering me!
did this relationship really appear?
will he still keep in touch with me after we mee?
will he stillconcern me after we meet?
will he still love me after we meet?
a lot of question in my mind!
will he be like others?
disappear after we meet?
dun even wanna fren with me anymore?
should i put much effort on this relationship?
will he still love me when he see me?
see my ugly face, fat body, shorter and older ppl?
i keep going worrying about this!
i dun wan it happen!
i dun dare to see it happen!
if it really will happen 1 day i choose to not to meet lo!
i should choose not to start.
but however, i think i hv to ready that its gonna to happen after 41 days.

i miss u dear.......
really miss u.......

distance and age!

2008-07-27T18:53:00.004+08:00

dear, i know yesterday u got go to cc to view our blog. but i feeling so upset, u always will tell me before u do anything. but i know u just dun wan me to worry about u. this is our blog that i use a lot of time to make it so that v can write and say whatever about our feeling here. i so miss u, i dunno why?! before for me age is a matter, now i also think the same. i still cant accept that u younger than me!wtf... who can accept her bf younger than her?! not few days or few months but is 2 years. i know u keep trying to make me not to feel so. u try to do ur best for our future, for my stupid feeling! i hate that feeling that i always care about our age. today bubbles ask me how much did i love u?! tell the truth is that i really dunno whether i love u anot? everytime u call me and when v gonna end the call sure u will tell me that u love me, not once but thousand time to make me feel that u really love me no matter what happened. i always make u worry about me, i so sorry. i doesnt mean to make u worry all the time. i wrote this blog just to tell what i feel. i admit that i still cant forget my ex. he still in my mind. the way he care about me, the way he make me fall in love with him but i know all this is past. i shouldnt think it too much. this few days i started feel so suffer the day without u to accompany to hv a bed time talk. i keep going find thing to do to make myself busy so that i not miss u that much. distance make us become far and far. i know u know that i so worry 1 day u will leave me like him before. i know u put a lot of effort this 10 days. everytime u call me, u know how much that i wish i can talk longer with u but i hv to control myself coz the telephone is too expensive. i dun wan u spend a lot. its not worth for u to do that for me. many thing happened to me after i break with my ex. i felt myself so dirty. when yesterday u tell me what u want when u come back, i still with the same answer no! i want a true love. but i know i not pretty enough for u guys to love me with true love. i not deserve for it. i know i know. thx for everything my dear. hope u can get ur internet connection as soon as possible. stop talking stupid thing here. need to go for a bath then continue with my assignment that i dunno y cant finish.

2008-07-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

i miss u dear!
is so suffering that u dun hv internet!
i keep going find something to do so that i wont so miss u!
and u cant see this blog due to no internet connection!
i so hope u can see this!
dear , u know ur bee very stupid?!
she use almost 1 day to do 1 blog skin!
terrible, right?!
i also know but i know how terrible i am dear still will love me de! hehe... blush!

2008-07-26T18:40:00.001+08:00

our love story begin!
i try very hard for this!
hope u will like it!
i miss u!