Power of Love.
she is my only lover that call
babe. babe sometimes also goes by the name
so po. our love like
dancing sheep.
meanwhile, he is the only my lover that call
dear. dear sometimes also goes by the name
zhu tou. we work hard for everlasting love. Love forever.
6:02 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
miss my dear so much! so unfair to him but... cant explain at all!
yesterday whole nite cant sleep well at all.today early in the morning go to college coz wanna go check whether my pendrive still at library due to my careless i left it at library yesterday nite but unfortunelly i cant found it!T.T ppl steel it le wtf of ppl is that! nvm, today i and my best collegemate go to interview for home based data entry coz both of us really no money dy and nobody know about this unless the person who recommend us and 1 more pretty girl know about it!v consider pk le! v just tot interview only just go try it! but whose know act need to pay for this and that! then both of us lie the interviewer that v wanna go to withdraw the money to make the payment! then v at group flour and discuss about it coz v also scare that v been cheat by them! v discuss and discuss coz v really pk dy v dun wan been cheat la but if v din try it how v know is real anot! then v decide just 1 ppl go for register and v share the job together! so if touch wood v been cheat at least 1 ppl only right and wont been cheated too much! so v try it out but v still scare it so v tell them that v wanna the assignment by monday due to they persuade us that they dy hv assignment on hand. so after sign agreement and everything the interviewer told us to go home and wait for the phone call! wtf...she not telling us that they dy hv the assignment?! shit! hope everything xun xun li li! so that i can buy pendrive!
after that, i continue with the idiot person who that consider herself as my group member in RM cw but do nth! everyday ask her din she do her part sure she reply sorry i not at kl! wtf!!! now call she do individual assignment she also susah! v finish ours then v gonna pass it up on monday then can concentrate on study! exam is on next week after raya la and until now i din even touch any book yet wtf! siew hui send msg and ask her when can she pass up then she say monday she just back! then siew hui reply her that v gonna pass it up on monday! u know what the fellow reply?! really ftw! she ask siew hui back then how! due to no answer then i become bad person! "when can u pass up ur articles to me and ur individual assignment! i wanna settled it down by tomolo and monday v wanna pass it up! mr.v**** give us 2 due date 1 is before hari raya 1 is after hari raya! if any 3 groups that can pass it up before hari raya they will get extra 3 marks so if u cant make it then v will pass it up 1st and urs, u hv to pass it up urself coz u din do anything for group assignment and others finish it ontime so its unfair for others if v wait for u! its really unfair to other that hv put effort in this assignment!" this is the msg that i send to her! but i still got put sorry in the end! haha...force and force she just told me she try to give me on monday wtf! v do like hell and others din care at all but gonna get same marks with us! its a bit unfair for me! nvm! how difficult it was GOD still will know everything that v do and put effort on it!
third thing that happened is today get cw marks for last sem! luckily still ok but then not really happy with the cw marks also! so now try my best in this sem exam to push the CGPA up again since my last last sem result like shit! nobody can imagine how shit it was!
stop this this stupid story since this blog is for catvin so better talk about us!
today even at class but my heart dy is in the house so that i can come back and voice chat using skype with vincent coz like that save money ma. after he go back sg v not yet hv a good conversation between us! everyday i busy with my cw and exam thing until no time to border him and he also busy with his work! everyday hv OT! everyday said wait he reach home v chat in skype when he call me thru hp but everytime he reach home and call me sure i dy sleep like a pig with his pig! so today tot is sat i can spend sometime to talk with him and he dy finish his work! but whose know not even 20 mins he told me he wanna sleep dy! so v end our conversation! end with bye bye even i really unwilling to hang up the call! i know is unfair to u coz everytime i sleep u wont angry me and disturb me even u so miss me and wanna to hv a conversation with me wtf!u bought a computer and paid for the internet but most of the time is ur fren using until i dunno which 1 is u?! when u can use it?!its so frust when i always hv to guess whether my bf back home and izzit he is the 1 who online?! everytime things turn it to u i will become very angry and fierce at u! so sorry that coz of my busyness i not spend time even just a few mins for u! i miss u very much! everytime see a couple pass by or next to me even my best collegemates going out with her bf i feel so upset! so jealous that her bf so near to her! but i know 1 day v will be together like her! i know u try ur best to work hard for our future so am i!sorry my dear for everything that i hv done to u! i try not put my temper on u and simply hang up ur call!
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8:51 AM
Thursday, September 18, 2008
the different guys with gals!
guys wont remember all the thing like gals!
gals can remember every single thing that they do together or even what the guy doing but guy cant remember every single thing that they do. gals always can care the guy very much but guy cant even feel it and do the same thing to gals! should now wanna advise gals dun find a bf that u love him more than he love u! find 1 that love u more than u love him, i'm sure u 2 hv happy everlasting together! but for sure vincent not a good guy and a good bf! maybe he still young! still in play fool mood is different from us! i start thinking of my future and he not! v hv a lot of different! my fren said hope that v can last for more than 1 year la! what they said hv make me worried so much! until now still thinking izzit worth for me to sacrifies so much for him that he din even care about me?! ya, the way he treat me really doesnt like a bf! he cant even remember when he find me or where v go?! sat when he come back i didnt go to class!v promised to meet at 11am! and sun i go to class and not mon! sun v go eat kfc and not mcd! sun u overnite at my house and not mon! v meet bubbles on sun and not mon! ya, u promised me to give me present but what u give me! is ur bro give u 1! my heart so pain when u told me!i do everything or u but u cant do even 1 thing to make me feel so sweet or feel that u hv sacrifies for us! u hv do nth for us! ya, 2 mnonths pass but i dunno whether v still can go for 2 months , 4 months, 5 months or even more!
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9:24 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
on leave 1 weeks back 2 KL
i back on last friday night reach on kl is 5am...damn so cold n kl change so much...but i stil can ren luo back hehe....after take a smoke beside wait teksi beside road...after get in teksi i say wif driver salak selatan.when bout 20minute,i reach my flat le.after pay then take lift n knock my house door i knock bout 2 min stil no 1 open door 4 me de?after tat my sis in law open her window n c who knock the door?yup is me,her open door n beside tat ask why u back no1 noe de?i ask my mom noe ar,but i get in house i no c my mom.....last time CNY i aslo gt back home bt my mom wil waiting me ar....why tis time no de?damn so tired sleep le oni say tomorrow la...when i wake up i ask my mom why u yesterday no wait me back n open door 4 me?her say her all time also sleep at her room n wil wake up at 5 am more but yesterday her no wake up juz sleep until morning...haiz......after talk i go wash face n go eat la.....so huai nian malaysia food haha....when i down food court i c wat?is nasi remah...so long time no eat le of course eat it la.......wa rm4.50 expensive ma?i no think so...hehe...n i c my fren at food court also so of course talk n talk la....beside tat muz sms my little sweat heart catherine....ask her where la...her stil study at school...after tat of course go meet my bee la...hehe after met v go pat tuo at time square....wan c tat money no enough but it wan wait until 4pm more of course cant c la cause night wan eat wif mme family ma....so juz walk walk around 4pm then back lol...so we back my house 1st la
muz bath ma....if not bee dun wan me le...hehe...after 5pm more v go down food court there n wait my family...wait until 6 more all come le then order food lol...fish meat sumthing like normal.....aster eat all family gone le...juz leave v 2 oni better my fren come so n wait he eat n talk lol....actually i promise bee tonight go her house sleep de...but my fren say tonight go pub drink....so u all noe la no need say la....of courtse go la....so i fetch bee back 1st lo...i noe he no happy de...but i say pls pls so her giv le lo....muakz bee....after bee back raining sia....half an hour stop le....so i back my fren house 1st n wait he bath n call all zhu peng gou you then meet at puib lo....1st order 3 jug bear drink....drnik n drink...finish le....n my fren say boring no gal come our table de?why pppl come v no?after wait n wait got gal come le....but no sop pretty la...better than no ma...hehe....her go drink wif my fren...last is me.all my fren so shy i also dunno y they shy...haiz....so i ask wat her name..omg i forget le...hehe...nvm then her sat beside me,alll my fren c at me so i juz smile smile lol...then her leave le so v juz drink again...after that finish le...n open 3 jug again n i ah wo n ah wing go out eat stim food juz leave ah hong inside haha....after eat v get in n drink tat got ppl sing,after tat gal sing ah hong ask her come n drink,tat more pretty than juz now tat,so all muz drink wif her la,i also the last 1 n also her sit beside me o..hehe really o.after drink finish v leave le then go massage o...when monday,morni same eat n i promise bee go wait her finish school so i early go wait her n her bring me go eat wif her school mate at McD..after eat then v back her house n i be pig sleep le...hehe...n her do her assighnment...when 5 pm more wake up le...n go bath lol...cause today there got pasar malam ma so ask bubbles go also lo...then go there walk n c git wat buy lo...n buy DVD c lo...n help bee didi buy food to he eat....after buy all then go back le....n c dvd la....after c 1 dvd finish is 12 more le....bee also sleepy le...so hug gether n sleep lol...hehe so sweet....tomorrow 11more oni wake up like a pig....then wash face wait her homemate fo out n eat n i back home le....n c my mom n talk...n no time puio my bee le so her atyle all out le like last blog la...haha...when saturday bee call me go find her but i so tired le is 10am o...but i got wake up n cal her say i tired la n her so nice cal me nvm la u lseep la...i say dun wan la i wake up la...her say dun need la u sleep la i think her so good de...after few hour send sms 2 me say break WTF i suddenly wake up le...ask wat happen answer is down blog there...u all go see la...i talk a little bit,answer is diff world la,no good la,no pui her la,change le la,no good la sumthing like tat lo.when night i sms so many time her also dun reply call her phone no answer la...when sunday night,i smsm her say i back tomorrow le u wan c me ma wan fetch me ma?her say her giot school finish at 11 more my bus time is 1.30pm so ok lo promise le,ask her now at where her say out wif fren gai gai....i say carefull ar,so worry her happen so night le is 11more pm le haven back home...when 12 her oni reach home.sov talk phone le,ask hoe her forgive me her say wat u promise her muz do so oni can forgive me i juz huatang her a present oni ma....so i giv her my pink pig lo...hehe...when monday i wake up n take all cloth n thing 2 bag of course muz remeber tat pig if not i die o...when 10.30 out n wait teksi go lrt station n take lrt go her school there lo i also shy take a big pink pig at lrt aslo scare malay c tat plastik bag no enough big sti can c tat pig tail but cant c head la if no i die o when malay c...hehe...when reach there her also haven finish school,so stil wait lo....when 11.10 her sms me say wait at McD there so i walk there n wait lo few minute her come le c me hug a pink pig her smile le no angry again le,u c like a child haha,dun tell her o if not i die o...haha...of course her gt c de...when meet go eat lo...after eat her bring me go buy thing...i c time is almost 1pm her ssay dun worry la,stil gt time when 1.10 her oni go pudu there n i ask tat ticket kaunter wat no. bas tta ppl say wan go bukit jalil wait bas WTF now is 1.20pm le...how i go...tat ppl say bas wil wait de call us go by shuttle bas go there...then v go wait at bas station la...when get on tat shuttle bas is 1.30 le...i so worry la...catherine la say dun scre c....when reach there is 2pm more le so i go find bas heng tat bas juz come oni,so v kiss her when i get on tat bas haha...sweet...n i cal her back la cause her stil gt lesson at 3pm so her leave le....n im back to singapore le....sad........n lastly happy 2month together catherine n vincent...........
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9:23 PM
take leave back to KL 1 weeks
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12:28 PM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
untitled
this blog is for u! no title coz i dunno what should i put!
for me, u not a good bf!
for me, i also not a good gf for u!
for me, we two hv a big gap that i cant even get in to ur world!
for me, we two is really a different world!
for me, i dun think i love u that much!
for me, i also know that u not really love me!
if before this u ask me whether i love u?! ya, i can very sure that i love u very much!
but now, everything is change!
its no more the vincent that i know before!
maybe u still the same just the different is i din be with u so i dunno what u really r?!
but now, for me, vincent is reallty different than what i tot before!
before meet, he so concern me!
before meet, he so care about me!
before meet, he can awake whole night for me!
before meet, he can dun join his fren for every entertainment just bcoz of me!
before meet, he start plan what he gonna do after he come back to be with me!
before meet, u said u will fetch me back from night class!
but after meet, he forgot everything that he told me before!
after meet, no more concern!
after meet, i not a princess that he care like before anymore!
after meet, i realise he not the vincent i know before!
after meet, u old me my class end too late la not going to bring me back!
after meet, after meet and many more!
and v seldom meet act!
love is not easy like what u think but it also not complicated like what u think!
before meet, i can told everything!
but after meet, i din even wan to talk with u what the problem u and me have!
i just can share with other that i not close at all!
before v started everyone advise me not to take the risk!
ya, i stubborn!
i dun believe it at all!
i think that u will change for me!
ya, u change!
change from actual good to bad!
is i too stupid coz believe that love is important than everything!
is i stupid until i believe that if v love each other then no problem for other things!
but now i realise its wrong at all!
alot of ppl call me try to talk with u the problem!
but i dun think what i say is useful at all!
this few days be with u every moment i look at u alot of thing in my mind!
alot of thing that gonna happen between us come out in my mind!
is suffer full of scary!
every i scare this and that but what for?!
alot of ppl advise me to not continue this!
stop torturing myself!
i still try an try!
but today i really cant accept anymore!
like others said, ya, i hv a guy who treat me good than u! y should i torture myself to choose u?!
a fren treat me 1000m times better than u!
when i sick the one who buy porridge and panadol for me is not u but other guy!
how ridiculous it is if other knew it!
when i sick the 1 beside me to take care me its not u!
i wish is u but reality not!
u can imagine how worst u r?!
i sure u wont know!
i know ur parents din like me!
frankly speaking i dun like them too!
1st impression is important!
they give me suck impression!
i start compare u with my ex!
how good is them compare to u?!
u still need a lot of work hard!
u totally different!
told u everything u also cant be like them at all!
i think is enough until here!
just let me go with peaceful heart!
i wont cry or sad coz u not worth for it!
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1:39 PM
Monday, September 8, 2008
cry out from the heart but useless!
yesterday nite i really cry out from my heart!
but useless! he wont know!
he not suppose be with me! ya!
in his eyes i cant see any love!
the thing i worried for so long its really happened!
everything is so sweet before v meet but it become a nite mare for me after met!
i learn the lessons from the day v met!
not to believe what the guy say so easily coz it will hurt u more than that!
not to met up with his family members if u not sure how is his family members gonna accept u!
and everything is not easy like i think!
he really different than "him"
i found out he not the one that i wan!
i feel like i a big sis taking care for a younger bro!
i feel that y i so stupid!
y i know that i so mind with the age but still choose to be!
y i torturing myself and now i suffer it alone!
i work hard and do everything for him but i feel really unsecure!
maybe he is too young!
i really hv to let go this before it will be more worst!
i wont be able to tolerate with nor him neither his family members!
i hv to future good choices y i choose to take the suffer way?!
i hv more better guy that i can choose!
a guy who care about me so much!
who always take care of me!
who always protect me!
but sad is my own bf wont do it on me forever!
he really not mature enough!
everything is different from before!
love someone so u hv to let go someone!
and i know he not serious in this relationship at all!
the way he talk!
the way he concern me!
all become different!
now for him if wanna break thenjust break!
he wont mind for it!
i think its time to say bye bye!
this time really bye bye forever!
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